I just don't know what to think anymore. Crying for the past 4 fucking fucking days isn't helping. It only made my eyes puffier than it already was. sonofafish. I guess words can hurt you. And yeah, the little things can too. Or maybe you all know that already. Man i'm such an emotional wreck. Things from the past kept being brought up. Regrets regrets regrets. Like I haven't beaten myself up enough about it. Everytime I think it'll just get better, hoho a big fat slap in my face with words made it worse. Safe to say i've never felt this way. I'll stop with all the assumptions. Maybe i'm thinking too much. That this might be it. Maybe it's time? I fucking hope not. No no no this can't be it. Damn. This post is making me sound like a depressed chick in need of a savior. Haha, "savior". Or maybe i'll just go slit my wrists and watch as the blood flows down. Kidding. I'm feeling emo, but not an idiot.
Maybe this post deserve some humor, no? *slits wrists* Hi, blood. Be my friend? Red brings out your eyes. Teehee.
College seems to be alright. For now. Met more people and i think i'm gonna enjoy being in my class :) For now. Most of my classes seems to finish early. Like really early. Like an hour earlier -.- prolly cause this is just the first week.
Nothing interesting ever happens.
I spoke too soon.
Today while walking down the stairs, Jordan came up to me and said "Oh manj, theres something on your cheek. Lemme get that for you." So he rubbed my cheek and I thought.. O_O o..k. Then halfway walking down the stairs, Nadine wanted to take a picture. I thought, oh, yeah sure. Of course she wanna take a picture with moi ;)
LITTLE DID I KNOW I HATE A SMUDGE OF BRIGHT PINK EYESHADOW ON MY LEFT CHEEK -.-
thank god only a couple of people saw and not the whole class.
Some of you know that I just started college this week.
Orientation was boring as hell, it lasted for 3 days -_- what kind of orientation lasts for 3 days?! Anyway, the second day of it, they drove us to a futsal place near Monash University to well, play futsal what else, as the introduction program.
300+ of us in some godforsaken place(let me exaggerate) in this damn weather. We only started playing 1 hour+ after reaching there cause there was "technical difficulties". In the meantime while waiting, they told us to mingle. Like that was their plan, "OK, you guys are trapped here. Go make friends you bunch of losers"
but I met a few of people during orientation week so it wasn't THAT bad.
OH OH I found out during Tokio Hotel's concert that Nadine will be enrolling in the same college as well! That put a smile on Manjs face. And I just found out yesterday that she will not only be going there, she'll also be taking the same course as me. AND TO TOP THAT, she will be in ALL my classes! :D HEHE What are the odds?! This is Gods doing :D
Will be starting normal classes next week. Till then, ♪CATCH YA LATER DUDE!♫